What a month you were, December.

These past six months have been a real adventure.

I took up a small internship that I was greatly invested in, knowing I would gain a ton of experience and further my own personal growth, even if I was scrambling for cash and living off the past two years’ savings of living at home and gigging as a barista.

“Anytime you’re gonna grow, you’re gonna lose something. You’re losing what you’re hanging onto to keep safe. You’re losing habits that you’re comfortable with, you’re losing familiarity.”

With drastic change, it’s easy to get a little lost. You lose your sense of comfort, home and familiarity. You search for that in others. You remind yourself why you moved, what you came here for, how to surpass all of the little bumps that came along the way — how to feed yourself, pay for rent, take care of your car, self, home and whatever else came along the way.

But as I used to always be scared that I was losing myself, maybe we’re all just growing more and more into ourselves.

“You should make your life into a movie,” a friend recently told me.

I’ve never been one to pass up the opportunity to live, breathe and take on anything to be passionate about this life that we live (as long as we live honestly and authentically in our own name) — and these past six months were just that.

From working the Unforgettable Gala with Kore Asian Media (an event we’ve been working towards all year long), to getting sick and strolling Venice Beach, meeting a new friend, seeing old ones, remembering just how much I love performing live, being on the road, and being back home in the Bay Area with my family, friends and loves ones…

“Christmas is a necessity. It is the one day of the year that we remember we’re here for something besides ourselves.”

I’ve always been a bit of a workaholic — sometimes to the point where it becomes a little unhealthy. (“Stop the glorification of busy.”) When you’re caught in the grind and business of your own individual life, you can get in over your head and forget why we’re here in the first place.

“Pink Skies” by LANY is the very first song I heard and fell in love with from that little band. A special someone introduced me to them just last year, November 2016. I took my 10-day solo getaway trip and hid under all the pink skies. And it was wonderful.

It’s about coming full circle to that moment when my heart felt its fullest.

“Talking under pink skies
I think our hearts are starting to show
That it’s better you and I
Under pink skies”

With love and honesty,

Rachel

View my past video blogs below:
Looking For You, Five Months In
Quarter Month Crisis
Third Month’s the Charm
I Adjusted Month Two
I Survived One Month